The truth has been discovered

No matter how strange it is that I have been aware of Wickham's true character, thanks to Mr. Darcy, for quite a while now, the whole town of Meryton currently seems to find discussion in his lack of manners and foul personality. Only months before, Wickham was constantly praised in town by those who did not even know him; however, it is currently the complete opposite. His elopement with Lydia has definitely contributed to the formation of the negative opinion of him by all, but I like to think that it was not just this event that caused most to change their mind about him. Nevertheless, I am thankful that people are beginning to see how truly deceitful and devious Mr. Wickham is. Despite his convincing visage of generosity, Wickham does not deserve to be seen as a noble, good-natured man, for his actions of the past have proved otherwise.

Miss Darcy

Mr. Darcy presented his sister to me today in Lambton, and I was astonished to observe that she is nothing like I had been told. Miss Darcy is not in the least bit arrogant or proud; on the contrary, she is shy and extremely reticent. Nevertheless, when I had the opportunity of conversing with her, she was kind and considerate, and her manners were graceful and as impressive as her brother's. Miss Darcy continued to surprise me by inviting my aunt, uncle, and I to dine with them in the days to come, and I regretted ever having malevolent thoughts of her. She is the complete opposite of what I had expected, and I honestly look forward to what the dinner will bring.

Dire need of explanation

It is extremely difficult to conceal the information that was revealed to me in Mr. Darcy's letter from my aunt and uncle! After being in his presence today, they remarked that Mr. Darcy is nothing like the selfish, cruel man I described him as. I tried to explain that I had been a bit mistaken by his character, but I wish I could just disclose the contents of the letter without making everything more confusing. I am aware that doing so would cause trouble and only make matters worse, but I wish it weren't so. I despise the fact that my comments of the past have influenced my relatives against Darcy and to favor Wickham, but it will just take time for their opinions to be corrected.  

No words to describe it

I had a feeling coming to Pemberley wasn't the best idea, and the arrival of Mr. Darcy only confirmed my biggest worries! I was caught speechless in his presence, and when our eyes met, I felt nothing but pure embarassment! He probably thinks I came in search of him, to say that I was a fool for not accepting his proposal and to apologize for refusing him in such a rude manner. I can only imagine to what level his pride has flourished to now! His character and manners have changed greatly and definitely impressed me; however, it only made the situation more uncomfortable, and I only felt that much more ashamed.  

Oh Pemberley...

As I walked through the Pemberley household, I could not help but think that if I had accepted Darcy's proposals, I would have been quite familiar with the fancy decor and lavish furnishings, instead of being surprised at the beauty and elegance of the residence with every step I took. The housekeeper's numerous remarks of praise towards Mr. Darcy striked me as a bit peculiar too, but one cannot expect anything different when present in their home. I was grateful that my aunt and uncle had plenty of questions for Mrs. Reynolds about Darcy and his family, for it allowed me to learn more about them without it seeming strange that I was so interested in the matter. I had to try my best to withhold my laughter when Mrs. Reynolds said that she did not know when someone "good enough" for Mr. Darcy would come around so he could be married, but she does have a point. If she had any idea that I had been of interest to him, I can only imagine the harsh words she would have to say.

Lydia's Invitation to Brighton

I cannot believe that my father would even consider allowing Lydia to accompany Mrs. Forster to Brighton! Does he not realize what shame and embarassment she brings our family, flirting with each and every soldier stationed in the camp? It is frustrating to think that he is willing to let Lydia go just because he does not want to deal with the great amount of complaining and whining he would receive from her if he were to say no, and my mother's support on the subject just makes it that much worse. Nevertheless, I do not wish to fret too much over something that does not concern me. Lydia will eventually learn the proper way to act in society, so if she chooses to make a fool of herself now, then so be it.

Jane's reaction to the news

I was finally privileged with the opportunity to tell Jane all that I had discovered regarding Mr. Darcy's feelings for me, and I was happy to see that for the most part, we were in agreement. She did not blame me for refusing him, but she felt sorry for the amount of disappointment he must be having to cope with. Jane's continuous thoughts and actions of pure kindness and utter compassion never fail to amaze me, and I wonder how we are so close yet hold opinions of others and of the world in a completely different perspective. Anyway, as I proceeded to tell her the contents of the letter, Jane refused to believe that such malicious, cruel people existed on this planet. Numerous excuses were formed on Wickham's behalf as to why he may have behaved in such a manner; nevertheless, we were both fully aware that his actions could not be justified.